family?

Everyone keeps telling me, God never gives you a load that you can't handle. Well if that's true, why can't I handle the load of my family. All I find myself doing is crying about it. I try to be a part of the family but it just feels like they just don't want me to be. I mean they are going over to Atlanta tomorrow and they know I can't go. I was talking to then this morning about it and all they had to say was, we are not going to give up going to Atlanta for Thanksgiving just because you messed up. I just walked off but I mean yeah I know I messed up but can't you give up one Thanksgiving out of state, it is just as easy for them to jump in a car and drive over here as it is for us to go over there. You are suppose to be my FAMILY, but apperently your not. What is family? I have heard so many different meanings of family. I don't even know what a family is anymore? Forget all this, this is what happens when I get bored at work and start thingking.