Were we ever friends?

I thought you were my best friend!
I don't even know what to think anymore.
I can't tell if you were really being the real you around me or being the fake you.
The person you are when no one is around is who you really are.
You don't have to lie to me about were you are, hell you don't even have to tell me, but if I ask, don't give me some bull shit about your not feeling well and going home and your not with that person when you really are! A little advice, try asking that person to be quiet, that way when you TRY and lie to me that your not with them, I don't hear them in the fucking background!!
I only have a few days here. I cancelled plans to spend time with you, because you told me to! Then you are cancelling on me to hang out with the same damn people you see everyday! On top of that you know I need you more then ever right now! I thought best friends were there for eachother! I am so glad to see how much our friendship means to you! Where we even friends, or did I become friends with someone who doesn't exist?

Atlanta

So I am all moved over to Atlanta. Today was my first day at work. It went really well. my tech students make me laug so hard, and my younger students are so cute and none of them are brats, that always makes things a little bit easier. I think I can finally say I am content with where I am in life, as far as work and where I live. There is only one thing I really need to correct in my life and I know I can do it, it will just take a while, but I know it will happen. I have only been gone for like 5 days and I allready miss the people from Alabama! I mean I just got back into church and finally felt accepted again and all the sudden I had to pick up and leave. I hope we don't lose touch and things end up the way we use to be. I get to see most of them on new years so that will be fun! Julie gets married Friday and I am super excited. He is a cool dude and treats her well and I am happy that she found someone like him. It is a winter themed wedding, of course! It will be soo pretty!! I am also in love with the dress I have to wear! Life is good right now! Everything is calm and peaceful. My life hasn't been like this in a while. I can honelsy say the smile on my face isn't a mask anymore

:)

racing against the clock

When am I going to get a break?!?
I am just in this mode where I keep going and going an I can't stop!
My mind is every where and I have so much to do but not enough time! I am getting this awesome oppertunity in Atlanta but I didn't realize it would all happen this fast. Now I feel like I am racing against the clock to get moved over there! I am so stressed. I can't handle this. I am finally starting to get up off the ground when all the sudden I just don't have the strength to get up anymore. I just want to lay back down. I thought I could do all this, but it is pretty clear that I can't! Someone help! I am so tired!

who are you?

Who are you?
What happened?
You use to be this person that was so loving and caring.
You use to be the person that stood up for themselves and didn't give in to peer presure.
You use to be the person who didn't care about what other people think.
I miss you.
It's sad when the people you know, become the people you knew.

loving life :)

So right now I am loving life. Everything is going in the right direction. I have an amazing new job that is giving me more then I can ever ask for, I am gwtting a new car, I have just learned Julie is buying a house, and I couldn't ask for better friends, they have been so supportive. There are a few more things that I need to get under control but I know I can do it but it will just take some time. I am so excited and can't believe all this is happening so fast. I am going to miss everyone sooo much. Only 2 more weeks!!

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So I got the job in Atlanta. I am so excited for it ... well I think? This is the job I have been wanting for a long time and I am extreamly happy I am getting this oppertunity! Tonight though I have been thinking. I didn't realize how much people really cared. One of the upsides (or well I thought was a upside) was that I would leave behind the the people who didn't like me. When the people found out that I was moving they actually cared about me. This whole time I guess I was just being stupid cause I thought they didn't give a damn about me. I thought I would just be leaving behind a few people that cared, I was wrong. It's going to be harder then expected. I know in the end, moving is better for me, but I am just confused right now.